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Like Water
Leave this dream
you’re not welcome here
anymore
pack your bag
and your sunny smile
even if it takes you a while
now I see
all that we’ve been through
I opened up my eyes for a different view
and I play you this song to be gone
downstairs I hear them at the bar
remember once the way we were
back there now in memory
like water
true love
changing the sea
now it’s all quiet inside
there’s no one in here
I shed my skin
I shed the golden tear
there’s nobody home
but it’s ok it’s me alone
again
again…
(Written & Piano by Jana Kouril, Recorded & Bass by Rainer Schudel. Song is uploaded on my myspace-page and in the music section here)
Marathon Man
So this is who you are
and this is who I am
I guess this is how you react
you’re the marathon man
Always up for something new
always down for physical fun
as you were done with the suprise menue
you forgot it was me
and it was you
And I watch you crown yourself
with yesterday’s thorns
I’m not willing to watch you suffer
and I’m pissed to hear myself cry
And I know someday we’ll meet
maybe it takes some years
and I know you’ll be smiling at me
against a wave of tears
wave..wave..
Well I guess this is who you are
and this is who I am
The after-ten-hours-wild ride (soon to be recorded, played on solo-gigs)
No you won’t colonize me
I’m not a seed which needs to be sown
Every compromise was simply not worth the cost
But I got more to give than you were ever dreaming of
More than just enough
We were a wild ride
I’m talking ’bout knowing yourself
Not about sex, ego or pride
Autonomy is useless
If you use it like a license to kill
And freedom is pretty dangerous in the open field
Sweaty hands and endless nights
You had too much power, we had too many fights
I’ll never be a soldier, but I’m armed with conscience
And a brain in my head
I truly doubt you understood one word I’ve ever said
Now I sharpened my nails, I sharpened my tongue
I watch you disappear, all you’ve ever done is run
now watch me fall on my feet like a cat
and the seven lives I lost to you I know I’ll get them back
Doubts & Losses
All you doubts and losses
where you’re gonna rest for a while
I can see you floating
like ice on the nile
I told you I’d be standing
behind the tree house door at a quarter past two
Farewell, my Love
you’re leaving
and I’m still waiting for you
Sonny’s bar is closing
the glass is waiting for you
no charge, free refill
if you got a broken heart or two
do you have really broken mine?
Wake up all you doubts and losses be long gone
if I can’t have you beside me
I don’t want anyone
Sonny’s bar is closing
the glass is waiting for you
no charge, free refill
if you got a broken heart or two
do you have really broken mine?
So I guess this is “the end” and “the over” too
I don’t want anyone
if I can’t have you
There’s more to come (NEW TRACK ONLY ON MYSPACE and WWW.MX3.CH)
(Piece of shit)
You make me feel like a piece of shit
but I quit being the carpet for your feet
but still go on reading between the lines
everytime we meet
Sitting here just counting days
waiting for the morning sun
copper light in my red eyes
trying to figure out what practically went wrong
You drink all the whisky and beer
but it won’t kill your fear
of hiding from me and running ’round screaming
you’re so crazy in love
Well thank you for letting me in one night
we both just stumbled in between
was it stage or backstage or security gap
where we played our favorite scene
So here I am asking you
three things I’ve never had the courage to
how could you not love me? How could you not care? And just shut up and leave?
Breaking up is a pair affair
You made me feel like a piece of shit
but I quit being the carpet for your feet
and it’s only a point of view
which side is wrong
there’s more to come…
Leave the lights on (as played on solo-gigs)
It’s one of those mornings
of one of those days
that follows one of those nights
It’s one of those weeks
in one of those months
when nothing seems to fit in right
It’s one of those times
in one of those years
everyday you feel new born
and everyday you learn to walk
and everyday you learn to talk
and every night you’re scared of ghosts
Leave the lights on
’cause dark times are surely gonna come
leave the lights on, let your love shine on
to me you’re brighter than the sun
You’re thrown into this world
some say you choose
you choose your family like you choose a new pair of shoes
and I’m happy to say
I thank you all
’cause for sure you’ll be there if I fall
Leave the lights on…
Now here we are
we finally met
we barely missed our chance
so open your eyes and be aware of what you are
’cause all that’s there it’s in your hands
Now leave the lights on…
Grass is green (soon to be recorded)
You wanted me to feel like a virgin or a whore
You thought you could just come back here for more
I’m not a shop where you can fullfill your soul
I’m not a woman defined by a hole
Since I’ve been born I travel the road
I’m still young but my soul’s old
Sick and tired but I’ll regain my power
You’re not sweet to me you taste sour
So pack your bags and the things you’ll be needing
A first-aid box to stop the bleeding
Watch me dancing tonight alone
Guess what I’ll find my way home on my own
The grass is green and and the sea is wide
If I get shipwrecked I swim to the other side
The grass is green where I come from
The streets are blooming
When I come home
There’s a body and there’s a mind
It seems you just got one of a kind
Go on breaking the heartshaped glass inside you
Fill it up with Whisky that might be risky
While I’m dancing, drinking and moving
Some day you’re aware of what you’re loosing
Cause when you smile the whole world is dying
Your ego’s too heavy to be flying
Ready (NEW TRACK recently added only www.mx3.ch)
I heard you’re an artist
How come it’s love you fake
And leave me here open bleeding
Go on with your mistake
Your fake ideas, hopes and dreams you shared
It sucks
cause you know I cared
And it seems you don’t have much to offer for me to take
But I’m a woman
I can coordinate
Like I said I can do more than one thing at one time
I can look beyond your dark eyelashes
and read the sign
Which memories are yours which are mine?
You should be worried about yourself cause I’ll be fine
I might cry some more night
I might drink way too much
Might miss your warm hand in mine
Might miss your touch
But nothing gets me back to where I was standing
and even when I shut my mouth now I’m still demanding
You don’t deserve me you’re right
come a little closer one last time but don’t stand to tight
I can look inside your soul and see the chaos you’re in
I can see all the sharks I can see you swim
But I won’t wait
Wait for you to be free
wait to be finally ready for me
I heard you’re an artist
So how come it’s love you fake
Different ways (NEW TRACK recently added only on myspace and www.mx3.ch)
You thought I would just pull it through
all by myself
But in fact I was just holding you
while you kept falling
As I turn my back looking over my shoulder to see
You are looking back at me
But it’s a twofaced mirror and a two sided street
And you’re standing on the other side is it me you’re gonna meet?
I know it takes a lot
to admit it takes more than you’ve got
But from now on empty are your days
We’re walking in two different ways
You know I’m not the type of girl who gives up easily
And you’re not the type to play or speak
But I am not a playground and you’re not a price
somehow I find myself being played with and paying twice
I know it takes a lot
to admit it takes more than you’ve got
But from now on empty are your days
We’re walking in two different ways
Goodbye for now (as played only on Live-Gigs)
The world has a funny way of telling
What really matters in life
Sometimes it’s blessed with beauty
Sometimes it cuts like a knife
This is not how we planned it
It went too fast and far too slow
But I learned to crawl before I walked in on you
And you don’t like to lose control
You have a funny way of telling
By never saying a word
But I want you to know
That I still need you
If this is goodbye for now
Let the crazy world keep spinning
And be here for real
Together we have not only two
But 4 small hands to heal
You have a funny way of telling
By never saying a word
But it don’t matter to me now
Cause I say welcome to you
If this is goodbye for now
Even if this is goodbye for now…
Better than before (as played on Live-Gigs and recently added only on www.mx3.ch)
Red Rocks turn to gold
And the sun sets quietly
Wide open space
Feels like reaching the horizon in one breath
and with a smile on my face
Every dusty highway seems to lead to the edge of earth
And old scars disappear
If you need to run be sure to make it fast
My heart’s still a little sore
But better than before
Snow covered mountains pretend to lie in eternal sleep
Remember when we drove 50 miles
to get from nowhere to the middle of nowhere
They ran out of gold here
But how precious you shine
So let’s fill our bags with hope
and laugh and talk and drive and make silly jokes
Say you’ll be waiting for me
How blessed in a lifetime can one be?
It’s a brandnew day
Put the seed in the soil
I see so much more beauty in you
But what is it that runs through your veins?
They say it is oil
Priceless (only on Live-Gigs)
No you won’t crawl back without listening to my word
You won’t break my spine without being hurt
Well you’re wrong and you’re right I ain’t gonna fight with you
‘Cause what thrilled me once kills me now
And I felt priceless these days
I knew I was worth it all
But from you came not even one excuse you were just too weak
And tasted too cheap on my tongue
You know when it’s all fucked up it still can get worse
And me with my tragic sense of humor I see our connection in reverse
So go on with your sleepy eyes go on sleeping with your potential bride
But remember when you wake up I won’t be at your side
I feel priceless today
I know I’m worth it all….
I’m a volcano I’m heating up inside
All my energy is boiling up so welcome to my fire
Did you think your helplessness would bring me down on my knees
Well I didn’t come here to say thank you
I didn’t come here to say please
Barefoot
Here & Now
Every little drop in this coffee cup
Reminds me of your skin
More silly it sounds the more bitter it tastes
So swim swim to the shore
It’s here and now
And I’m willing to give
More than I will ever have
If love’s like this
go waste it all for nothing
I know we’ll pull it through somehow
cause it’s here & now
and every single sip
feels like your fingertip
a blend of „what’s going on?“ and „please don’t stop“
you know I fought
I fought too many wars and now you’re here for peace
It’s here & now…..
Letting-goes
I haven’t slept for days
Now it’s 5 a.m.
Thoughts are in my mind
But I can’t think
I’m tired of you and tired of me
And time makes it s circles through time
How does it get to be so sad
Stop it now darling
One more of those „letting-goes“
It’s only another good-bye
One more of those „letting-goes“
Was not meant to be
And was not made for me
I dose myself with black coffee and cheap red wine
I’m trying to feel nothing
how I try
now the sun’s again rising much to soon
Love’s more of a circus than a crime
How does it get to be so late
Listen now darling
One more of those
Letting-goes……………………
Barefoot
I don’t want this
I’m alright
I can make it on my own
And I don’t need you to cause me trouble
Do you need me?
I heard you’re doing fine
I’m sure you’ll make it on your own
And you don’t need me to walk you home
So free
You caught me in the middle
In between
But I can run barefooted out of here
The say you’ll find love
But tell me is this true?
I won’t let you make me feel insecure
And then make me chose to be maria or a whore
It’s not you what you dreamed of
Not even what you were wishing for
what’s the use in buying when you bargain for more
For more of me
You know freedom
It’s meaningless
if you go on with fighting
And hurt to be healed
Poor Boy
Poor Boy
oh you’re poor
Can you spare some kind of hate
Poor boy
How you’re poor
Can you teach me any funny games
Poor boy
Oh you’re wearing a worn out heart with love for sale
Poor boy take your time to make a hat out of your pride
And all she’s asking for is an open hand
And a pocket full of borrowed trust to spend
Poor boy
Acting like a sentimental clown
Poor boy soon you’re rich
And you can buy yourself a new face to face
all I’m asking for is an open hand
And a pocket full of yesterdays for future lovers for rent
And a pocket full of borrowed trust to spend
Poor boy
Can you spare a litte love for me?
Vincent
Sitting alone in the cafeteria
Why is nobody here
Drinking my green tea with asia plum
Why are you not near
I’m slightly waking up to realize
I’ve been living in a dream
Surrounded by cold emptyness and not by you
Last night I saw you standing on the stage
And I couldn’t bear dreaming couldn’t dare feeling couldn’t bear knowing that your smile was on my face
Now all the ashtrays have disappeared I know you used them
Like you sometimes needed me that’s why I’m searching for their company now
You thought I wouldn’t miss you
You thought I won’t
But you were oh so damn wrong and now it’s already gone
But I still and I will
I still know your smile is on my face
Start all over
Why don’t you take
What I give you
Why do you break what I built
Why don’t you do what I’m telling you
you’re such a naughty boy
Why don’t you listen when I’m asking you
The more stupid questions I might ask
And just turn your head as we both sit here
With no words to crash into
You can start all over again
Throwing another dime
And tails I’m the misread value
And heads I’m the misreable gain
Well you can do that
But without me……………..
Why do you lose
What you chose to love
I am never yours
Go on and paint
Black and white
How colorless’s your smile
Maybe tomorrow
I don’t know what happened
To this space
Between you and me
How close can you be
But how far I was looking into you
How good you made me feel
But how scared I was running to hide
And then you just came over and said
I’m the one to decide
And maybe tomorrow
Everything will be alright
And I will feel safe
And we’ll be just friends tonight
Let me find an answer
Let me find a reason for this mess
To be able to start anew you have to destroy
Everything you guess
And maybe tomorrow
Everything will be alright
And I will feel safe
And I can love you
Keep loosing ground
Woke up today, stumbled out of my bed
Run out of hope, got an aching head
I’m saying hello to the only face that I see
It’s again this little girl in the mirror that cries for me
And so it goes
The sun is knocking on your door
But you rather stay in the shade
And lift your feet off floor
And keep loosing ground
Seems like your hiding under my bed and the sheets
And then escape through the doorlock with all my needs
Now the walls are closing in
Don’t know where you end or where I begin
And so it goes
The sun is knocking on our door
But we rather stay in the shade
And lift our feet off floor
And keep loosing ground
So it goes
The sun is knocking on your door
But you rather stay in the shade
And lift your feet off floor
And keep loosing
I keep loosing ground
A little….special
Sometimes I feel a little small
Like when you’re walking right out on me
Last night I felt a little scared
When I know you were lying next to her
Today I feel a little unprecious
By your sense of humour
And now I feel so damn used
Can’t help falling down down deep
Every cell craves
For an everlasting lie
That can make me look special
In your eyes
Pay attention to loving me
Pay attention, too
Yes, I cheat a little
To win you over in a thousand years
Now I feel so damn used
What was it like on top of her?
And every cell craves
For an everlasting lie
That can make me look special in your eyes
Pay attention to loving me
Pay attention, too.
A chord like a minor
Empty bed
The future’s ahead
Who knows who you will be
All alone
In my lonly bed
That’s filled with naked dreams
I love to watch you sleeping
And whistle with your fears
Who know’s who you will be
Who plays in the end
A chord like a minor
A little sharp
You kiss with thorns on your tongue
Is this revenge?
You make me feel like a blue-blooded woman
The taste of being left behind
Is no longer haunting me
Cause I got a friend that’s deep within me
but daddy left too soon
A chord like a minor
A little sharp
You kiss with thorns on your tongue
Is this revenge?
You make me feel like a blue-blooded woman
A chord like a minor
A little sharp
Your kiss grows thorns on my lips
Is this revenge?
You make me feel like a blue-blooded woman